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Purity of Communication?
July 15, 2010, 9:26 am
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In order to write down the thoughts in one’s head all of the thoughts must
be sifted through, strained, and boiled to the consistency of taffy. This
way they can be stretched out and examined and all of the excess dribble
that hangs on somewhere in the middle will be heavy enough to drip down and
break off, thus leaving the mind clear for exploration without all the
clutter. You will find that people very rarely know what it is they are
thinking about and are able to voice it or give it a structure. We have all
grown up with an idea of what is right and what is proper and voicing one’s
thoughts out loud goes right up there with not feeding your vegetables to
the dog under the table (at least not when anyone can see you); but what
about when they can? I think that even when they are able to see you, there
is still a need to hide what you are doing. Does this then mean that no one
is honest with anyone else…or just that no one really cares enough to
really check up on everyone? Is there such a thing as PURE communication? Is
there a way that we can say what we mean and mean what we say, or is the
thought of being so honest with ourselves and others completely terrifying
that we will mentally repress the need to express ourselves or fill our
lives with other things just so we don’t think about it? What are we afraid
of? Rejection, laughter, humiliation…all these reactions are possible, but
so are acceptance, understanding, the need for comfort and connection with
another. Is it possible to stretch a thought so much that the meaning of it
alludes us to the point where we have forgotten what the thought signifies,
or worse make a thought signify something it isn’t just so another person
finds it valid?! I want to be able to think without the voices of other
people encroaching on what is right and proper and yet I want others to
think that what I think is right and proper so I feel connected to them.
Thinking this way is very isolating. I feel alone in my observation of
others, cut off from experiencing life in a relaxed way while feeling the
need to analyze why I am not relaxed in my own experience. I want to relax.
I want to feel connected to the world and its inhabitants while still being
able to create and thrive off of the energy around me. Is there energy
enough around to sustain my own thoughts and give them meaning to me? Or
does the meaning elude me just as much as it seems to allude others? It is
important for me to have someone witness my life and understand my thoughts,
so that I do not feel that when I die I would not have contributed something
to the world, or given something of myself that others could look to and be
comforted by or something which they could learn from and use to make their
life easier. It is difficult to think that there is nothing at the end
besides darkness or the disintegration of the body into the energy around
us. I hope that the energy I dissipate into is not filled with “bad vibes”
or negative thoughts. I want my spirit and my essence to surround others and
inspire them to do something with their lives! To create, and live everyday
experiencing new and awe-inspiring wonders that surround them; even in
everyday objects. The world is pulsating with beauty, pulsating and bursting
with creative force! All one has to do is tap into it in order to feel
engulfed with positivity and drive. I feel this alternate plane of existence
running parallel with ours and sitting just below the surface of our
consciousness, I only wish that there was a way that I could make this
apparent to others, to enhance the experience of it for everyone. There is
too much beauty to take in at once, and too much energy to store up for a
time when I can process it and figure out what it means. I want someone to
share it with. I want someone to tell about it. I want to be able to
communicate with another person, if only to tell them what I feel around us
all the time and try to understand if they feel the same thing?


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Rally week 25 is on,
please place a link under the post above when you are ready,

your poem shall be written for Poets Rally only, not entered for another meme before or after,
thank you in advance.

Comment by Jingle


there are other opportunity to explore,
check them out so that you are not bored.

Comment by Jingle

you can use the same poem if you want to,
or post a new one,

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please visit and sign in the agreement first,
I will let you know when the Rally 25 is on.

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